Tomorrow is the big day

Tomorrow is here and Im dreading it more then anything. I have never had a surgery in my life and to do it without my husband by my side is killing me. He is the only one who can calm me down and ease my nerve, he is the only one I want by my side and there when I wake up. Im going to die when I wake up and not see him there. It has been a hard week. All I think about is how he wont be there, he cant be there. I dont want to do this.. I cant do this without him. Tonight is the night before and it has finally hit me the hardest that I have to do this without him... ughhhhh