John Legend is my buddy today

During this deployment two things have gotten me through each day..well three, My dogs, books, and music. No matter what mood im in I love music. When Im happy, sad, mad, whatever there is all types of music that gets me over whatever Im going through. So during this deployment I have gone through each day with Music on my radio, laptop, or my min when I cant listen to it like at work. I listen to mostly songs that remind me of Matt of course. All those sad songs about their loved ones being away, or happy songs that me and Matt used to listen to together all the time, or the ones he would sing to me in the car rides to Boise. I even listen to the ones I hated that he sang only because I would kill to have him back here singing them at the top of his lungs instead of him being in Iraq. I have made playlist on my Ipod: Deployment 1, Deployment 2 etc. I send those cds to Matt since he cant download music and I listen to them over and over again. Today its John Legend. John Legend is my buddy today. I ave managed to make a playlist dedicated specifically to him. Well besides one song. I burned it and will be sending it to Matthew in his next care package. Why John Legend? Because I remember oe day when me ad Matt were fighting he put a few of his songs on in the car on the way to base and my mood changed almost immediately. It makes me think of him. So here is to you Mr John Legend.. your getting me through today and probably this next week till I move on to someone new.

My dogs are my kids

So as you prolly know Matt and I have no 'human' children YET. I am asked this question all the time being near a military installation where people get married and have children young. I say " well yes two furry ones". Our dogs are our kids and will continue to be our kids even after we have 'human' children. Now back a few weeks ago when I interviewed on the radio I was prepared for the question: "Do you have children?" and I was prepared to answer " Yes sir I do, a 2 1/2 year old mutt and a 6 month old Brown one". Now what response do you think I would have gotten with that answer? A mutt and a brown one? lol LeBron and Maui are our children. We take care of them, raise them, love them, and they love us back. Is that not just like children? Do people not adopt 'human' children just like we adopt pets? Well yes adopting pets is easier then adopting a child but same thing right? They may have big ears, go to the bathroom outside, drink out of the tolite, walk on all fours, and lick your face a little too much but then again so do some peoples children! :) Well Needless to say I treat my dogs, my fur babies, like they are my children because to me they are. They have kept me sane at times when I wanted to go crazy, gave me companionship when I was lonely and have cheered me up in my darkest days. With out them I would be a lost and heart broken woman during this deployment. So yes I think its fair to say that just like if I would if I have a child, I dress them up for holidays take family pictures and mail them out to the relatives . Until I have a child to add to the Christmas cards this is how it will remain! I love my puppies!

Its fading away..

Although I get to see Matt on skype almost everyday, it seems like everything is fading away. I am forgetting what he smells like and what his kisses are like. Its only been 3 weeks and It already feels like its been month since the last time he touched me. How is this gonna be for six long months Im dying for his touch his kisses his smell. I hate this feeling of distance. How do you feel close to someone when they are so far away. How do you keep up a marriage when you cant be together? I guess I better figure it out soon huh? Just come home soon baby! I love you be safe.

Week By Week

I hate to look at this deployment as 6 months. I hate to sit here and think that dang Im not going to see my husband for 6 long months. In fact I hate to think about that fact that he is gone at all. So here I am living week by week. All of us 726th Spouses have tried to plan things as often as we can to keep everyone busy. The Friday after they left we had a meeting and planned for the Air Force Appreciation Day Parade, Saturday was the Parade. Also Friday was the Radio Show. Then last Wednesday was  Key Spouse lunch meeting which was fun. Saturday we went to the Veterans Resource Network with all the spouses to pack care packages for the guys. I packed one for Matt, one for our friend Mowry, and one big one for the other guys who are there. Then after me and Melinda kept busy with lunch and some shopping. This next weekend is the UnBall BBQ. Its for us 726th spouses whos husbands are deployed and can not attend the Ball. We are having a big BBQ. All spouses are invited. Then we are trying to plan stuff for next month also. More care packages pumpkin patches and more. Its much easier to look forward to something week by week than look at it like oh 6 months.... Hopefully this makes it go by faster. I know when It gets around the holidays its gonna go either way. Its gonna go by slow and Im gonna be down that he is away or it will go by really fast and I wont have time to be sad. Lets hope for the first one. This week should hopefully go smoothly. Work hours are different Friday off, No school for a few weeks. The only downer is the multiple doctor appointments and the CT scan on Friday. Man do I wish Matt was home for those.

The most amazing husband in the world... just saying

Well I thought I would write a post about the man that has stolen my heart.  His name is LeBron.... ahahahah JK baby, although my handsome chocolate lab is pretty darn cute. Anyways back to what I was saying, without Matt I guess there would not be a 'Life as a Military Wife' blog because well, I wouldnt be a military wife.
  I have the most amazing husband in the world. He has truly changed my life for the better. I have been through so much in my life and just when I had lost all hope, trust, and faith he came into my life. Matt and I met trough a mutual friend of ours. Lets just say to this day I am thankful for Kenny for this very reason. From the first day I ever saw Matt I knew he was something amazing. He proved me right the first time we actually hung out alone. He is the most handsome man I have ever met, he is funny, charming, sweet,smart, and well just amazing. I honestly can say that I have never met someone like him. In fact it wasnt that I just never met anyone like him its that I honestly thought they didnt exist.I am so thankful that God brought him into my life.

Well baby if you are reading this which Im sure one day you will. I am so thankful for you. You are the love of my life and I dont know what I would do without you. I am so proud of you and what your doing Matt. Not many people have the courage to do what you do everyday.. put up with me. Lol jkjk im talking about sacrificing your life for people you do not even know. We miss you so much back home and can not wait till its all over and you are back here with us. Stay safe Matt and come home soon. I love you so much baby.

Military Appreciation Day Parade

Saturday was Military Appreciation Day. Mountain Home Idaho looks forward to this day all year long so its a huge event for this tiny town. It stars off with a big Parade. All these Veterans, Military personnel, and other organizations design floats. Then there is a contest for best float. Then after in Carl Miller Park There are booths set up and food and games and music. Its really nice. Well since 726th is 90% deployed the wives were the ones that sat in on their float. It was really nice. We had about 5 hummers and spouses and children throwing candy and beads off of them. Well we won the best float contest. It was really fun. I can say that one thing on the good side of Matt being gone, even if this is the only thing, is that I have got to experience things I would never had a chance to such as the live radio interview, the 726th float and Im sure more to come. Here are some pictures fro the parade and our float.

But of course I am still Missing My wonderful amazing husband like crazy..

When does this feeling go away?

Well yesterday I was sad.. then Matt surprised me on skype late last night and that really made my night so much better.. then I slept good for most of the night before I woke up with a horrible nightmare I have had since I was younger and in alot of pain from my knees. So I woke up not so good. Then of course I didnt know If I was going to be able to talk to Matt or not today. I was really sad.. I hate that feeling of being so sad and only wanting to hear from your husband, to have him here to make everything better and you cant. Well as I was writing this he surprised me again and got on skype. I got to see him for the longest since he has been gone. It really is amazing how something so simple can make my day totally flip around. Do I still miss him? Yes like crazy and Im still kinda down but seeing him made it so much better. I love you Matthew Ryan thank you so much for all that you do. Your so good to me. I hope you start feeling better soon. Wish you were here so I could bring you soup and grilled cheese and you can relax in bed and watch movies till your all better again. We miss you here. Stay safe