Today is wonderful

Today is a wonderful day. Other then the fact I woke up to pee everywhere because well as I posted below Im a bad mom and didnt take LeBron out when I should have and the fact I lost my license plate in the car wash today is a great day! I took the puppies to the dog park, I paid for our Airline tickets and our deposit for out trip we are taking to Australia in April thanks to the wonderful wedding gift/money from my wonderful in-laws, I got a call from the car wash saying they found my license plate so I dont have to buy a new one yet again ( I have done this before same car wash I swear that car wash eats them), I called USAA to file a claim for the chip in my window and they are coming out the same day to fix it ( man thats service), I called the couch people to get it cleaned for when Matt comes home, did two of 4 final assignments, and am just having a good day overall!!! Not to mention my husband makes me so extremely happy that the littlest thing makes me smile and my heart pound. He is just so wonderful to me. He has a smile that can make my day a wonderful one. I love you honey. SOOOOOONNNN :)

Random Survey

I copied this from Mary and since I am 'patiently' waiting for my husband to get on skype soI can take the dogs to town after I figured why not!

I see: My dogs playing on the bed
I need: to take a shower :)
I find: That deployments suck
I want: My husband to come home from Iraq like NOW
I have: The greatest Husband in the world!
I wish: We got orders to Guam
I love: love, my husband, my family , my friends, and my life
I hate: people who lie
I miss: my husband for sure
I fear: of losing those that I love
I feel: lazy
I hear: my dogs growling
I smell: hmmm
I crave: chocolate covered strawberries
I search: for books on my new kendle lol
I wonder: if we will ever get orders outta here
I regret: nothing because my past made me who I am today

When was the last time you ...

Smiled?: when LeBron was nudging the bed so hard it shook because he wanted to play
Laughed?: same time
Cried?: a few days ago because I miss my husband
Bought something?: Monday
Danced?: Thursday Night at Vals
Were sarcastic?: alll the time
Kissed someone?: September well I guess I kissed Jaybird and viv last week
Talked to an ex?: i have no idea
Watched your favorite movie?: I dont have a fav
Had a nightmare?: almost everynight

A Last time for everything ...

Last book you read: Reading three weeks in Paris and Confessions of a Military Wife
Last movie you saw: film: Hostage
Last song you heard: Oh gosh IDK
Last thing you had to drink: water
Last time you showered: yesterday afternoon
Last thing you ate: Frosted Flakes

Do You ...

Smoke?: never
Do drugs?: nope
Sleep with stuffed animals?: no
Live in the moment?: I try
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no, I HAVE A WONDERFUL HUSBAND!
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: Yes
Play an instrument?: Guitar
Believe there is life on other planets?: sure
Remember your first love?: yes
Still love him/her?: no
Read the newspaper?: sometimes
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: no
Believe in miracles?: yes
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yes
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: no lol
Consider love a mistake?: no
Like the taste of alcohol?: wine and margaritas
Have a favorite candy?: chocolate
Believe in astrology?: sure
Believe in magic?: ehh...
Believe in God?: yes
Pray?: yes
Go to church?: i use to
Have any secrets?: yes
Have any pets: the two most wonderful dogs ever
Do well in school?: I like to think so
Go to or plan to go to college?: I am
Have a major?:elementary education
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: never
Wear hats?: sometimes
Have any piercings?: yes
Have any tattoos?: 7
Hate yourself?: no
Have an obsession?: im sure
Have a secret crush?: no
Do they know yet?: ^
Collect anything?: shoes ;)
Have a best friend?: yes!
Wish on stars?: sometimes
Like your handwriting?: never
Have any bad habits?: yes
Care about looks?: yes
Boy/girlfriend's looks?: looking good sometimes matters but i love a confident guy
Friends and other people?: i don't care
Believe in witches?: no
Believe in Satan?: its possible
Believe in ghosts?: i believe in spirits

Project Gratitude Day 9

I am thankful for my Mother and Father In Law who gave us a tramendious wedding gift that paid for out deposite for our Autrailia trip! I love you guys!

I am also thankful for the carpet shampooer they got us for Christmas since im a bad mommy and decided to not wake up and take the dogs out when LeBron clearly had to potty.    :/

Day 23:

A Picture of your favorite book


I really have a lot but I will have to say the Twilight books would for sure be ones that I loved.

I just got my Kindle in the mail yesterday and I am so extreamly excited to finish the books I am already reading so I can start on a new one on the kindle! I was totally against them untill I messed around with Vals. It is so awesome! I highly recommend it to anyone who reads!

Project Gratitude Day 8

I am thankful for my amazing bed. I got home last night from Montana and refuse to get out because I am so comfy.

I am thankful for days I dont have to do anything ( well besides Homework but Its not a must do today)

I am thankful for a husband who even though he is busy in Iraq he still finds time to email me as much as he can

Day 22:

A Picture of something you wish you were better at

Hmmm I would probably say I would like to know more about politics and our government. I dont have enough patients to care but would like to be able to have a conversation with someone about it lol

What a Military Spouse Knows

Written by a fellow military wife


As many of you know, my husband came home from our third deployment not too long ago. During the deployment, a reporter asked me to share “What I Knew” about deployments and military life. This was my answer:
As I forced my hands to unfurl from his neck, feeling the familiar sting in my nose as tears pushed against my will, the words rattled and echoed in my brain. “Not again.”
I watched him walk away–that uniform, identifiable gait—and my heart bent and splintered as the reality of a third deployment began to shower over me.
I picked up the phone, dialing the numbers my numb fingers always meander toward, and sat in silence while she tried to ease my pain. “I can’t imagine…He will be home….I’m here.”
And then she said six words that shot through my ears, penetrated my brain, and stiffened my spine: “You know how to do this.”
She was right. I do know how to do this. I intimately know the all-too familiar lump in my throat. The year of being both father and mother, making the best of a situation. I know exactly how one year feels  as I X each day off my calendar. And I know how to ensure that while our lives are on hold, we still live.
The truth is I know a lot:

• The thought of being alone for a year doesn’t bother me. The fear of being alone for a lifetime—does.

• Flat rate boxes can hold twenty whoopee cushions, four kindergarten projects, and five perfume-scented letters.

• Technology can be a double-edged sword—one side delivering his face; the other a brutal live-action feed of explosions and camouflaged body parts.

• Murphy’s Law is a constant companion. The moment he walks out the door, anything that can break, collapse, bleed, or explode–will .

• Five hours of uninterrupted sleep is a gift from the deployment gods

• Holidays are hard, but manageable.

• Deployments come and go, but sand from his boots never leaves.

• Nothing can replace a handwritten letter. Through those beautifully folded pages, he is holding my hand again.

• When the National Anthem is played, I know goosebumps will rise on my arms, and a lump will fill my throat.

• The silence in communication following a war zone attack is agonizing.

• Laughter is a powerful ally.

• Each deployment offers two options: grow or regress. This is a choice.

• Cereal is always a dinner option.

• Videos of lost teeth, ballerina recitals, and preschool graduations can be emailed to Iraq nearly instantly.

• Five powers of attorney and the intimate details of his will are needed to navigate a deployment.

• White out blizzards can actually bury a truck in five minutes.

• Rosie the Riveter was right: We can do it.

• Children cling to hope and the promise of tomorrow.

• Living in each moment together is possible when facing the fear that it could be your last.

• Welcome home kisses are sweeter than the finest chocolate.

• Anger will grip me and depression can hold me, but another military spouse will steady me.

• A six-year-old child can feel the absence of her father so deeply that she can suffer from clinical depression.

• A military spouse will often hold her/his tongue, silencing a story, for fear of sounding “unpatriotic.”

• The sound of a bugle can make my heart swell with pride or collapse in sorrow.

• Duct tape and a monkey wrench can fix nearly anything.

• Despite the protestors and those who tell me I “knew” what I was getting into, I know there are countless American citizens who will go above and beyond to show they support us.

There are many things I know.
I know how to change the brakes on my truck, rappel from the side of a cliff, shoot a double-barreled shotgun, balance a checkbook, earn my keep, and kiss a child enough to feel like two.
But there are still so many things I don’t know.

• I don’t know how to start my heart again when I see a death notification car on my street.

• When that knock echoes on the door of my neighbor, I don’t know how to forgive myself when I am relieved.

• I don’t know how to hug him enough to last a lifetime, or kiss him just so in order to feel satisfied—should our reunion be at the foot of a pine box.

• I’m not willing to learn how to pretend he doesn’t exist, to keep him out of our life while it goes on without him, or to build a wall so high he has no way to scale it.

• I don’t know how to stop his panic attacks, and I have no idea how to make my nightmares of rampant bombs and lifeless limbs disappear.

• I don’t know how to adjust to his presence in my house when our floor rarely feels the weight of his boots.

• I don’t know how to tell his small children that, yes, he leaves them all the time. But because he loves them so deeply, he is willing to die to keep them free.

• I can’t understand those who would question my desire to stay with him, or how I can peacefully sleep beside a “killer.”

• I am amazed and confounded that despite all he has seen, he still has the courage to laugh.

• I don’t’ know how to give up on my family.

But, most importantly:

The Author

I have no clue how to still my pounding heart when he finally walks through our door again, I don’t know how to pull my hands from his sand-stained neck and say goodbye, and I don’t know how to ever walk away from a man who stands while many choose to sit.