Crazy Busy

Its getting crazy in this house!! With everyone trying to get ready for the Deployment and figuring out leave dates and time off before hand. Then my mom is trying to come out and see Matt before he leaves. Less then three weeks away and there is still so much to do. Im trying to plan a going away party for the guys while preparing myself for six months away from my husband. Honeymoon? What honeymoon? We got a deployment. Such is life in the military I guess. Just when I think I have pushed the deployment out of my head and can at least pretend Im not freaking out inside, I walk into my house to boots everywhere, camo bags full of stuff for the deployment, and uniforms laying all over the place. Then like a smack in the face it hits me that he really is leaving, its not just a nightmare. Its weird to say this but I think Maui even knows something is going on. She has been all over Matt lately and real sad it seems. Now LeBron is too young to know anything but he will once he sees his daddy not coming home. So so sad. Man I cant imagine how heart broken I will be doing this when we have children if Im this sad about the puppies!