Its coming! But not fast enough!

38 days away! We have 38 days till the wonderful month of March will be here, the month I have been waiting for since Matt told me he would be deploying  last March. To think Almost a year ago Matt warrend me that he probably would be getting orders to deploy for 6 months in September. Well we have almost 5 months down. And with 38 days till march left it means we are finally in the month that my husband comes home!!! I honestly can not wait. I mean who could really? All I have to do is keep myself crazy busy for this next 2 months so the time will go by fast. My mom comes Friday to visit for a few days, then Im trying to keep busy at the gym in the mornings, got to look amazing for our trip to Australia or and of course Matt lol, then we will have lots of meetings and planning with the Key Spouses and spouses group to plan their return home and then of course teaching! I a trying to get as many teaching jobs as possible in Feb. so the days will go by fast and of course the money is great too. Then I have school. I have 3 more weeks in My Ashford Class and then Will start another and then I have 5 more weeks in my UPOX classes then I will be done at that school for good! SO I have a lot to keep me busy hopefully it makes it fly by. I cant wait to see Matt walk into that Hanger for the first time. Then to bring him home to see our puppies and our new hoe he has never seen. Awwww what an amazing feeling that will be.

What to do what to do??

Matt and I have been up in the air about weather he should get out of the Military or Stay in. Today I think it really hit him that he wants to be close to his family again. See when he gets out of the military we will move back to Ohio. Our options are: have him stay in since when he will be in almost 10 years when his time is up in a few years, get out of the AF move to Ohio and go reserves, or just get out all together. Im sure that staying in is the best because of retirement but sometimes whats best isnt what our heart really wants and thats really important. So here we are making a huge decision. Also getting out probably means that we will be stationed in mountain Home for the rest of his time in.. that kinda sucks lol but if it means my husband getting out and never having to leave me again then I think Im ok with it.I guess we will see what happens... Its up to him in the long run. I think Im ok with either one but it would be nice to have my husband home all the time and be there for our children. Also to have our children grow up around family since I didn get that chance. ehhhhh

What I miss.

Last night was kind of a rough night for me... so it got me thinking about what I miss the most about Matt being here.

*watching movies with him. Every movie that comes out every night...
*Cooking for two
*Seeing how much he loves out puppies and when he plays with them
* For sure watching him play basketball
*His Kisses
*The way he would sing to me in the car on the way to Boise
*How he can make me smile even when I have had a horrible day
*How he likes when I fall asleep in his arms
* His smile ( even though I see it on skype 99% of the time its blurry)
*Text messages from him
*Holding his hand
* How being with hi makes me feel like nothing could go wrong or no one could hurt me

At my first 3D movie before he left!!!

Lets just admit, that boy is my world. I am absolutely smitten with him. I am so happy to have him in my life.

Going the Distance

I watched the movie 'Going the Distance' last night. First let me start off by saying what a great movie! i thought it was going to be a sappy chick flick but it was pretty funny. Not what I expected. Anyways there was a part in the movie that the main couple breaks up because of distance,New york to Cali. It made me think about how often normal, and my normal I mean non military couples, do this they break up because they are a state away. Then I look at my lifestyle, the lifestyle of every neighbor around me, almost every friend i have. We go months sometimes years with out seeing our Husbands or boyfriends who are off in Iraq, or Afganistan, or Korea, or just at a different base then we are aloud to be at for the moment not by choice but because they have to. We dont look to breaking up or getting divorces because they have to head over seas or PCS to a different base by themselves. Honestly I rather do 6 months with Matt in New York then 6 months of him in Ira1. At least I can go visit him when I want to and I can call him when I feel like it. Im really dont want to be the one who says oh my husband is military I have it harder then everyone else because thats not true. There are plenty of people who arent married to the military who are going through harder stuff then I ever will, but sometimes and espeially right now when my husband is millions of miles away in a dangerous place that I just get sick of people breaking up because they dont think they can withstand a few months and a few states away, or who cry because they have to spend the week up at college away from their Boyfriend, or even whos husbands are on a week long business trip. Sheesh people you could have it worse!! Yes I get sad very often and maybe whine to my close friends and husband about how bad this sucks to have him away or go through a surgery without your husband by your side, but I will never go out in public and cry about it because the person you may be crying too may being going through something ten times worse!!

Love and Basketball

The First time I saw Matt it was on the basketball court, the first time I talked to Matt it was on the basketball court, I fell for Matt when he was on the basketball court.. I just didnt know it yet. Basketball is such a huge part of Matts life and of course Im a huge fan as well. Everything makes me think of Matt, naturally, but when I watch basketball, talk about basketball, or hear about basketball I get a little sad. That was our thing.. I watched every game with him, we lived at the gym getting ready for a game, playing a game, or watching a game. Yelling at the tv just isnt the same without him next to me. Monday was the first game I went to since he left. Season just started up and I didnt feel right going when he wasnt there but I went with friends. Sitting there watching the guys play made me sad.. I want to see Matt shooting those threes.. Baby please come home to me so I can stare at your 'shoes' :) My life Love and Basketball... and I wouldnt change it for the world.

Pictures!!

I thought I would post some Pictures Matt sent me fro Iraq... Im still waiting for the picture that was taken when Matt was presented with his coin so hopefully I will have it soon!!

Some of Matts troops when the Command Chief came to visit

Matt on His Way to Iraq in the Plane

Matt Waiting In Maine with Mowry and Wisecup

Matt getting Rowes Coin from the Command Chief

Matt Presenting Rowe his TAOTW award that Matt wrote the package for and his Coin from the 332nd Wing Command Chief

Dreaming of that Day

 

New hair-do, $45. New dress, $65. Pedicure and manicure, $50. Watching my heart walk off the airplane, priceless

Here we go!

This is it the down hill portion of this horrid deployment! Just a few months and then the wait for the " Baby Im coming Home" phone call. Man I can NOT wait for that. Those will be the most sweetest words I hear until I hear " Mrs. Gainer your pregnant". I can only imagine hearing those words. That feeling will truly be amazing and nothing will be able to bring me down. Ahhhhh I cant help but smile and get butterflies when I think about him coming home.

 I am back on my feet and rolling since my surgery. I am able to get back to teaching which I taught my first class last Friday. Truly amazing If I say so myself! Then my 3rd-6th grade girls Cheerleading started again last night. That group of girls are just a riot already. They have such active personalities which is really awesome. This season should be great. I will miss my 1st and 2nd grade girls but Im excited to get this season rolling! I am also finishing up classes at UOPX as well as starting classes at Ashford and working my butt off to try to get into University of Southern Calis Masters program eventually. Then of course my Key Spouse stuff and planning the guys reintegration party. My mom comes out the last weekend of January for a few days and then February spending cleaning, getting in shape, and everything else to get ready for my baby to get home!!!! Ahhh sweet sweet bliss when I think of that. Man I can not wait! Keeping busy these last few months!!!