A Week or so

Well again this deployment date is getting moved up. Looks like this could be my last weekend with Matt. It really does suck. Specially when we had plans for the last weekend to do our going away BBQ and my mom is coming out to see him before he goes. We still dont have a leave date but I have a feeling Im not going to like it one bit! But what can you do right? I became a Kep Spouse for the 726th ACS. My job during this deployment is to be there for the spouses or parents of our deployed men and women. I make calls monthly and send out emails frequently. I am here for support of if they have any questions or concerns. I just made my phone calls to all my spouses and parents on my list. I have a great group of spouses and parents that seem so thankful for this Kep Spouse program. Hearing them say how thankful they are really makes you feel so good about what your doing. I actually had a dad tell me today that he found out more today then he had in the whole two years his son has been in. He was thankful to have someone to contact if he needed to. This Key Spouse thing will help make this next 6 months Matt is gone so much better.

Crazy Busy

Its getting crazy in this house!! With everyone trying to get ready for the Deployment and figuring out leave dates and time off before hand. Then my mom is trying to come out and see Matt before he leaves. Less then three weeks away and there is still so much to do. Im trying to plan a going away party for the guys while preparing myself for six months away from my husband. Honeymoon? What honeymoon? We got a deployment. Such is life in the military I guess. Just when I think I have pushed the deployment out of my head and can at least pretend Im not freaking out inside, I walk into my house to boots everywhere, camo bags full of stuff for the deployment, and uniforms laying all over the place. Then like a smack in the face it hits me that he really is leaving, its not just a nightmare. Its weird to say this but I think Maui even knows something is going on. She has been all over Matt lately and real sad it seems. Now LeBron is too young to know anything but he will once he sees his daddy not coming home. So so sad. Man I cant imagine how heart broken I will be doing this when we have children if Im this sad about the puppies!

September is Coming too soon

We are weeks away from September and as it comes it hits me harder that Matt will be leaving us for six months. Now here is the thing. I know I am so strong and very independent but how can you fake a smile when your best friend, the love of your life, and your husband wont be here to hold you at night? Now Matt is so busy getting ready for this deployment. He works long hours doing out processing and making sure his troops are ready to go and when he isnt at work he is playing on his basketball team and squadron softball team. Everyday seems to drag on when Im away from him and the second we get home it flys by in a matter of minutes. There is still so much to do before he leaves at the house, at work, with our families trying to visit before he goes. Keeping busy helps keep my mind off things but it also makes the days seem to go by faster and as I said before September is already coming way to fast. This next few weeks need to slow down becuase Im not ready for Matt to leave yet, but then again will I ever be?